Locked up?!?

I was watching an Akon feat song 'Locked up' today, that was when it stuck to me how locked up I was in a place where I was supposed to be free and during that phase of life where independence is felt,learnt and yearned for.Everyday I Facebook I see my friends from Mumbai uploading pics of fun,joy and freedom.But here when I have to ask a hundred permissions to cross the college gate I give up.I realise the value of being a person with a gift of adaptability.But there are atleast 5 thousand girls like me behind these walls of holy hell. Fun and frolic don't depend on the place say some.But I feel the world is going on and I am not in it.Its running fast and after a year when get out there I might not be able to catch up. Education is one thing but experience is another. When it comes to experience even the worst situations teach us a life lesson, something which we don't learn from being locked up.And atlast when we do get some holidays to go back home its like we are being bailed out awaiting a verdict.The days fly and back we go to the same walls.

What should I do????

'Decision making' is one of the major attributes which we have to accept whether we want it or not.Many times I ponder over some of my major decisions which had,have and will have an affect on my life; then I get lost in the spiral which fills me with guilt.I realise a little more hardwork and a firm decision of not letting go would have gotten me where I was actually supposed to be.But this moment is more precious aint it? Everybody makes mistakes.The grass always appears greener on the other side.But the point is even if it is greener, am I a cow grazing???I am human and I can take decisions that ruin or make my life thats why I am here and thats why I would be responsible for anything I do.I cant blame anyone!
Living and crying,living and laughing,living and thinking,living and enjoying,living and loving....Living goes with everything,every moment is to be lived by us, not by someone else who's brave enough to take our decisions and thus take blame for them.
All this is a lot of philosophy,which I wouldnt have read in any other blog unless it relates to me.I guess it would most to most of us youngsters...So lets decide and live the moment as we want :)...